just in time

i´m sorry for not writing for al ong time, but i´m nearly stressed out, cause there is so much to do since i´m back and then i want to go to so much festivals and events, god wants me to go.... and one of them are already behind me, like the "willow Freak", it´s our yeah, something like a festival just for leaders and these, which going to be leaders in our movement. it was at a little farm in thuringi, very nice, but very rainy, too. but this doesn´t matter, cause Jesus don´t care about rain or sunshine to do something for us...and he was so awesome i had a great time in worship and the preaching wasvery good, too. Jesus touched me so much and started to heal my lonelyness, it is so great, to see, what he is doing, not only with me...
when we went back to berlin on the Autobahn it was so awesome, we sat in our car and sang worship songs and look outside and the nature there was like a bicture just art...to see the sun breaking through the clouds and all these coulurs were very intensiv and then ther was this wounderful sunset coulering the whole sky in orange-red...i´ve never sawn something like this bevore...
it was the funiest road tripp i ever had we were 4 girls in my car, it was so small, we all were very tired and flashed by jesus, my car look like a garbge can and we hadn´t a lot of space but it doesn´t matter jesus was with us and no matter how the circumstances were we were happy and saved:-)
there was just one sad thing going with us, cause some good friends of us leaving us, they moved in a bus a couple months ago and now they started to living on the road...it is hard and i miss them but i know it´s god´s way, so...let them go:-)
and this weekend i´m gonna see them again at the "Moers- Festival", so i´m excited and at the end i look by myself what god wants me to do in my life and it isawesome to see, whatdreams he gave me...
logical thinking they are impossible, but i know that i´ve a god, who can do this...so i don´t care...
i have this dream in my heart not to work till the middle of august and visit some festivals and other freaks and just look, what god is doing... after that i go to work so that i can pay back the money i bowored and next year if god want i move into a bus and go to east europe...
thats my dream...it´s actually hard to realise cause i have no money and so on, but god is there and all i want is to go! just go! no thinking about problems....just go, just walk in faith...

Back in Berlin

Since more than a week i´m back in Berlin, and it´s wounderful.... there are a lot of things to do many apointments, but also seeing my friends and knowing, that i´m home is all i need....all this stress doesn´t matter...i´m home...:-)
i mean, i still miss Amerika, and i love you all, and miss you, but it is also good to be here with my family:-)
the first weekend back in Germany we had a weekend only with my community in a little village near Berlin and it was sooo good, god has opened hearts has touched us, Al and Tina were with us and it is such a good feeling to have our parents here...
And i know more and more that god is with me that he carries me no matter what....Satan atacs me since i´m back a lot and sometimes realy hard, but the lord was there everytime and he saved me and it is so wounderful to see what he is doing...
i know more and more what it means to be like a child to trust like a child in my father....sometimes it was so hard only to trust in him, no matter what circumsatnces are around me, cause the circumstances seems so big, but god gave me this faith as a gift and it is so wounderful, i can´t discribe it´s only a deep feeling insde that i trust my daddy no matter what...even when the circumstances ar so bad i trust in him and i pray, that all of you will get this faith....
I love you!

once again

my heart won't understand
what my eyes sawn times ago...
"it was better" told my brain
"Stay!" cries my heart
you gone
why you?
why now?
just once again touch your hand
just once again see you smile
try to understand were no understanding is
only feelings
lonleyness calles my heart
can still feel the touch of your hand
i wanted to tell you so much
and at the end nothing....
i'm afraid to forget you
but at the the end how would this happen?
you're still here
near
in my heart
and all this tears will ending
in a sea of hope

to my grandpa (died february 06) and my greatgrandma (died december 04)

time

the day i'm leaving the states is coming closer and closer....but i will use the time to write another post and let you know, whats going on..all in all not that much...i have a very good time staying here in florida, feeling like holidays...here, near the ozean..i will miss it to get up in the morning and smell this air, listen to this waves.... in the last days i chilled a lot, hanging around with the tv, walking at the baech and taking a bicicle ride through this wounderfoul area... yesterday i was the first time in my life making a pedikure, it was funny...
but i'm also excited to go back to gemrany, see my friends and family - i miss them so much sometimes....
but god also showed me, that there is everywere family in him....but all in all i learned more and more, that it doesn't matter were you are or which place you called home - germany, America....it doesn't matter i fgured out, that home is there, were god is and were you friends and family are, that means what you realy feel at home is not the place is the community, the people there...
ok, enough of my boring life:-)

where the sun is at home

since a couple days we are back in Florida, actually since fryday last week, but on saturday we went to get motivated and worked there till thuesday. it was an awesome time, sometimes realy heard, long days filled with work, but the team we worked with was so awesome, that it was all in all more fun, than everything else. And i feeled another time like at home even though i didn't kne anybody without tina And Al, it is so awesome to see, how god workes and that we are a big family no matter were you are and were you're from!

Since thuesday we are in Florida and Tina and Al going to theire appointments to get ready to go back to Germany for 6 month and i have time for my own, chill in the sun, take a bicicle ride to the beach and haning out with god. just enjoying the sun:-) Thank you, jesus!